Tag Archives: friendship

Perspective

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WormI took this picture a few weekends ago and although it seems strange it made me think of perspective. Some may look at the picture and think, WOW! Look at those tiny ants all working together.  While another may think, How horrible that while one is injured others take advantage. How vastly different those perspectives are.

This week while helping my daughter memorize her verse for Sunday School, Romans 12:18, If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.

I promise, I think I can get all these thoughts to tie together, bare with me.

I have had a job since I was 15 years old. In all my years working, I have NEVER had a work year as horrible as last year.

There were lots of things that contributed to it be so bad.  And although I shared some of those things with those who I considered to be friends at work, I told no one everything that was taking place due to not being able to wrap my head around some of the things that were happening. Yes, I am mature enough to realize that no matter what was going on I am still responsible for my actions. Unfortunately I did allow it to alter some of my behaviors and I made some wrong choices with my friends. With the beginning of summer and putting some distance I saw the mistakes I made and apologized to what I considered to be 4 very, dear friends. I apologized for the things I knew I had done wrong and for anything that I was unaware that I had done.  I asked for their forgiveness and said if they wanted to talk they knew where to find me.  I thanked them for the friendship they had give and wished them and their families all the best.  From 3 of the 4 I get absolute silence and these are people that I was friends with for 11 years, 6 years and 5 years. From the 4 I get the occasional message usually after I have contacted them and attempt to be friendly but in a much different manner than we ever had. I am smart enough to know that their perspective of the situation maybe different (see I told you the crazy thoughts would all tie in).

The bottom line for me I guess is this question, “Do I continue to try and work on the friendships by sending text like: Hope things are going well.  Thinking of you.  Happy Holidays, etc.? Or do I let go, be thankful for the time we had and move on? And if I move on and am later contacted do I rekindle the friendship or just be cordial and continue about living. What are your thoughts/advice?

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Remembering…

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Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day?
Were you in the yard with your wife and children
Or working on some stage in L.A.?
Did you stand there in shock at the sight of that black smoke
Risin’ against that blue sky?
Did you shout out in anger, in fear for your neighbor
Or did you just sit down and cry?

Did you weep for the children who lost their dear loved ones
And pray for the ones who don’t know?
Did you rejoice for the people who walked from the rubble
And sob for the ones left below?
Did you burst out with pride for the red, white and blue
And the heroes who died just doin’ what they do?
Did you look up to heaven for some kind of answer
And look at yourself and what really matters?

I’m just a singer of simple songs
I’m not a real political man
I watch CNN but I’m not sure I can tell
You the difference in Iraq and Iran
But I know Jesus and I talk to God
And I remember this from when I was young
Faith, hope and love are some good things He gave us
And the greatest is love

Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day?
Were you teaching a class full of innocent children
Or driving down some cold interstate?
Did you feel guilty ’cause you’re a survivor
In a crowded room did you feel alone?
Did you call up your mother and tell her you loved her?
Did you dust off that Bible at home?

Did you open your eyes, hope it never happened
Close your eyes and not go to sleep?
Did you notice the sunset the first time in ages
Or speak to some stranger on the street?
Did you lay down at night and think of tomorrow
Or go out and buy you a gun?
Did you turn off that violent old movie you’re watchin’
And turn on “I Love Lucy” reruns?

Did you go to a church and hold hands with some strangers
Did you stand in line and give your own blood?
Did you just stay home and cling tight to your family
Thank God you had somebody to love?

Where were you when the world stopped turning on that September day?

 

By Alan Jackson

September 11, 2001 8:46 am  I was student teaching at Rodgers Middle School.  I had just delivered my homeroom to the basketball court for intramurals and walked back to the classroom where the teacher had turned on the TV and told me that an airplane had crashed into one of the Twin Towers.  I was shocked and remember asking, “Is the weather bad?” and hearing “No.” I was so confused.  Then as I saw a second plane crash into the second tower fear begin to mix with the confusion.  My niece attended Rodgers at the time my instinct was to find her, sing her and take her home and keep her safe.  But I had a bigger responsibility at that time, I needed to turn of the TV, pull myself  together and make the day as normal as possible.

 

As soon as 4:05pm came, I was in my car headed home.  I curled up on the couch with my eyes fixated on the television soaking in the horror of what had happened as tears poured down my face.  For days, every free moment I spent scouring the newspaper, searching the internet, and watching the television trying to soak in all the information I could about this horrible tragedy.  After about a week,  the time came that I could cry no more and I could no longer watch or read more about it.  I began to pull out movies instead to watch on TV.

 

As a teacher one of the new mandates that has been passed down to us is that we teach about Patriot Day in remembrance of September 11, 2001.  As a teacher and a parent I realize this is a sensitive topic, so I try to share the basic facts of what happened that day and how emotional it was.  I feel it is important to let the student know what happened that day as well as how so many people worked together and the importance of working together.

 

Daily Progress 1.5 miles at 3.8 mph.
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Jogging, Bowling and Swimming

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Started the morning with another sunrise jog.  Did the first mile of 60 second jog/60 second walk in 11:52.  I then walked another 2 miles.

Wanting to have a fun-filled summer day; my mom, my grandma, my best friend, my princess,the princess’ friend and I headed to the bowling alley.  We had a great time bowling two games, singing to radio Disney, dancing and eating french fries.

After bowling we grabbed a bite to eat at Pizza Hut.  Then spent the rest of the afternoon at the pool pretending to be mermaids and diving for jewels.

What a wonderful day! Can’t wait for summer school to be over so I can spend every day like this.

Family Fun

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Wanting to continue to push forward, I welcomed the morning with a jog at the park.  Much happier with my time of 11:47 for the first mile.  I didn’t do a second because I knew I would be doing a lot of walking that afternoon at Animal Kingdom.

What a wonderful day!  My parents, my grandma, my princess, my BFF and her prince loaded up and headed to Animal Kingdom.  Yes it was sweltering hot, but what a wonderful family time we had.

The princess, the prince, and my BFF.

My 85-year-old grandma.

I consider it a tremendous blessing that my precious princess has the opportunity to make such fun memories not only with me and my parents but also with my grandma.  it is an opportunity not many get to enjoy.

Plateaus, Pushing on, and Progress

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About a week and a half ago, I was DONE!  I was ready to retire my running shoes.  Now by nature, I am not a quitter so I found it difficult to deal with my thoughts of stopping.  I don’t know why I no longer wanted to do it…I was tired, frustrated, overwhelmed and a million other excuses.

It was then that I was reminded of the power of friends and encouragement.  I appreciate those who are there helping me to better myself.

I am happy that over the last 2 weeks i have lost the 2 pounds I gained and an additional 2 pounds.  I have only 2 pounds to go to reach my first goal.  Once I lose those two pounds, I will reward myself with a day at the spa.

Due to Tropical Storm Debby, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical.  I miss my jogs!

Princess Spa Day

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Today was MARVELOUS!  The princess and I met some new friends at a spa for little girls.  The had appointments scheduled for manicures, pedicures, and haircuts.

The Princess and her new friend at the beginning.

Pedicure -Blue polish with silver and white sparkles.

Watching Tangled while waiting for her toes to dry.

Manicure-To match the toes.

Haircut-Shortened and thinned.

At the end, two beautiful princesses!

After not getting home till after one this morning and getting up early to go to the spa, I was lacking the motivation to do my jog.  A good friend gave me a swift kick in the butt and off I went. Keeping the intervals the same, I did the 1st mile in 12:42 and the 2nd mile in 12:38.

Relaxation

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Anyone who knows me well… knows that relaxation is not an easy thing for me to do. Life had been crazy busy these past couple of weeks and I have been looking forward to our annual family getaway.  My goal was to relax!  I didn’t know if it would be accomplished but was pleasantly surprised when a good friend got to slip away and join us.  Her goal was to make me relax. She succeeded.

There was no jog today but I did go long nature walk.  Here are a few of my favorite pictures I snapped along the way.

 

This picture captured the beginning of one of my favorite times of day sunset and made me think of a dear friend and smile.

To capture these pictures I was sprawled on the ground on my belly with the camera poised.  They reminded me of an anorexic dragonfly crossed with a butterfly.  I laid there for a long time fascinated by these insects.  I decided that one must be a male and one a female.  One of them had a black body with black wings that had one white dot on each wing that would all align up into one dot when they wings were folded.  The other one had a bright blue body with black wings.

This was a spider web that was stretched about six feet across the path from one tree to another.

Great Friends

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Armed with a coke, I headed off to work which I have changed to the term Crazyville due to this week’s happenings.  Did the day go perfectly????? No, but as I sit here tonight typing thinking about the day I realize overall it was a good day and what made it a good day was my friends.

The one who helped me put together lesson plans for 3 classes.  The one who offered me a pretzel cigar break as well as a bathroom break.  The ones who shared dinner and drinks with me.  The one who kept me company listening to me share my thoughts.

So yes, I am relaxed and ready for another day in Crazyville – that will be long thanks to conference night.

I did get in two miles at the park track doing 2 miles in 28:52.  I don’t have any conferences scheduled for tomorrow I might try to sneak in a run between dismissal and conference night.

Why I do what I do

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For those of you who know me well…go ahead and sit down before you read this.  Yesterday, I changed and jogged/walk a section of Bayshore Blvd.  Although it was mid day and the sun was beating down, I loved the feeling.  Took me a little longer but did my 2 miles in 30:45 keeping with the same 2 minute walk, 1 minute jog intervals.

The evening was rather eventful as I joined 2 girlfriends to celebrate the one friend’s 40th birthday.  As we entered the restaurant, a nice looking young man dressed in a tuxedo appears on my left.  It is one of my former students who I taught in 2nd and 3rd grade.  He is dressed to attend prom.  He gives me a big hug, introduces me to his date, and we catch up on what is happening in his life.  Again, before he leaves the restaurant he come to my table to hug and tell me goodnight.

And that is why I do what I do! It is why I stay up late and get up early to do things for my students, it is why I cart home journals, homework and projects to give feedback, it is why I attend their functions, it is why I play freeze tag, it is why I do so many things that I often feel go unnoticed.  Because in the end the ones that matter the most do notice, appreciate and remember.