I took this picture a few weekends ago and although it seems strange it made me think of perspective. Some may look at the picture and think, WOW! Look at those tiny ants all working together. While another may think, How horrible that while one is injured others take advantage. How vastly different those perspectives are.
This week while helping my daughter memorize her verse for Sunday School, Romans 12:18, If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.
I promise, I think I can get all these thoughts to tie together, bare with me.
I have had a job since I was 15 years old. In all my years working, I have NEVER had a work year as horrible as last year.
There were lots of things that contributed to it be so bad. And although I shared some of those things with those who I considered to be friends at work, I told no one everything that was taking place due to not being able to wrap my head around some of the things that were happening. Yes, I am mature enough to realize that no matter what was going on I am still responsible for my actions. Unfortunately I did allow it to alter some of my behaviors and I made some wrong choices with my friends. With the beginning of summer and putting some distance I saw the mistakes I made and apologized to what I considered to be 4 very, dear friends. I apologized for the things I knew I had done wrong and for anything that I was unaware that I had done. I asked for their forgiveness and said if they wanted to talk they knew where to find me. I thanked them for the friendship they had give and wished them and their families all the best. From 3 of the 4 I get absolute silence and these are people that I was friends with for 11 years, 6 years and 5 years. From the 4 I get the occasional message usually after I have contacted them and attempt to be friendly but in a much different manner than we ever had. I am smart enough to know that their perspective of the situation maybe different (see I told you the crazy thoughts would all tie in).
The bottom line for me I guess is this question, “Do I continue to try and work on the friendships by sending text like: Hope things are going well. Thinking of you. Happy Holidays, etc.? Or do I let go, be thankful for the time we had and move on? And if I move on and am later contacted do I rekindle the friendship or just be cordial and continue about living. What are your thoughts/advice?