This little heart monitor has been my sidekick for the past three weeks. We were scheduled to hang out together for another week but plans changed with one little phone call on Monday: “The doctor has reviewed your test strips that have been submitted so far and would like you to come in this week instead of waiting until the 2nd week in July.”
Today was my appointment and the news I received was that the testing strips showed both episodes of early beats and supraventricular tachycardia. Now this isn’t totally new news to me. About 8 years ago, I received the initial diagnosis, I chose at first treat with medication. 5 years ago I decided to suck it up and have the surgery to what I thought would permanently end the problem. Guess I thought wrong.
So now I must decide…medicine or surgery. I have about a month to decide. During that month, I will be taking the medicines and monitoring their effects.
At this point my thoughts are that I will do the medicine. i just can’t justify the risk of surgery if not absolutely necessary knowing now that it may not be a permanent solution and I may have to be back on the operating table yet again.
One of the many emotions I felt this time when I received the diagnosis that I didn’t have the first time was the mommy guilt and worry. Is this a condition that my precious princess will inherit too?
No this isn’t the end of the journey…just a bump that I am working on picking my self up from and brushing myself off so I can continue on.