As I child, I was very outspoken. If I had something to say I would say it no matter what the consequence. In fact when I was in middle school, one Wednesday morning in chapel I displayed my talent for speaking out. The pastor stated something from the pulpit that I knew was not Biblically correct. I mean come on, I was in church every time the doors were open since I was born and spend my entire educational life in private Christian schools…I know my stuff. Because it was school chapel and many students didn’t come from such a grounded background, he always allowed us to raise our hands and ask questions. Towering at almost 7 feet tall, he could be quite intimidating….but it didn’t faze me. When he called my name, I spouted out, ” Can you show me where in the Bible it says that?” Which I then followed with verse after verse that said contrary to what he had said. I don’t remember mush else about what happened other than I had to meet with him and my parents had to meet with him.
Fast forward to now…I still consider myself to be an outspoken person. I will fight to the death to make sure that not only my students, but all children are pushed to their greatest potential, given what they need as individuals, and in a safe environment.
But I have also learned something about myself…I am not confrontational and have a need to maintain peace. Even though I may feel strongly about something if I know it may upset someone’s apple cart, I will refrain from speaking it. I realize the irony in this fact especially as one who is seeking to fulfill an administrative position.
I know it certainly must be better to tell someone rather than keep it bottled up but also remember the old saying, ” You catch more flies with honey than with vinegar.”
Here is to finding part of the young girl I use to be and mixing her with the lady I am now to find the perfect balance.